If you have been following along with this blog for very long you know that Mondays are hard for me. Whew, I am tired and my head aches quite often by the time Monday morning rolls around. That is why I stay home, do laundry and catch up on email, blogging and miscellaneous things that need to get done.
Long ago I learned that each of us has a different stress level. Some people have the ability to handle large amounts of stress and activity, for others that amount sends them into a tailspin of depression. I always seem to be surrounded by people who have a lot higher stress level than me and I compare myself to them which leads to feeling guilt and shame. I don't think the answer is to surround yourself with those who have lower stress levels but to honestly figure out what yours is and keep your schedule below that mark. The word that best describes this is margin. Keeping a little extra time with nothing planned so when unexpected stress or activity come you will not fall over the edge of sanity. So many people I know have no margin in their lives. Even I am tempted so often to schedule too much in my week and then crash and burn, feeling like I need to drool into a cup in the corner and wondering how to get out of this life I created. Everything can be going along just fine and the next minute an insensitive comment can find me crying in the closet. Oh, I so want to learn this lesson of balance and boundaries and learning to say no. No one can teach this to me, I have to figure it out for myself and consciously choose to stay in the safe zone. Why is this so hard?